I'm scared

I am scared all the time. I rarely let it show through, but what if we can't have kids? What if nothing works? What if there is no way to afford it? There are so many what ifs, I try not to think past tomorrow but it doesn't work. We have the basics going for us - I ovulate and R's stats are normal, but that is all I'm holding on to. Again and again I read about couples where everything works...but something doesn't add up to the desired result. Who's to say that won't be us?

I don't know what to expect and I don't know where we are going next. That scares me.

Also, my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone on this day.