Not the appt I hoped for

My lining isn't good.  It is somewhere between 6 and 6.5 and they want to at least 7.  It doesn't sound like a big difference, but only cycle where my lining has ever been more than a 7 was my fresh IVF.  If I can't get a decent lining to grow on stimulant hormones, I really doubt a week with a few extra estrogen pills is going to help.    I don't know why I didn't brace myself for this scenario.   So of course I come home in tears and R is supportive, but immediately goes to the old...me being negative.  He said this is just the beginning and he doesn't want to go through all this again with me getting so worked up over a bump in the road.   Awesome...guess I need to work on internalizing emotion again.    To add to all this, C and I fly to Chicago for a wedding on the 14th.  My flight is 11ish and several family members will be on the same plane (none of who know we are cycling of course).  I am waiting for someone to get back to me about making a special exception and do a transfer on Wednesday the 12th, because right now the only transfers blocks in the schedule are Thursday afternoon, which won't give me 24hrs bedrest before getting on the plane.

So as of right now, I continue on the 10ml of Lupron a night and the 6mg of Estrace orally.  I am adding in 1mg of Estrace vaginally 2x a day and I have to schedule an appt. next week for another lining check.

T minus 2 weeks

Tentantive transfer date is two weeks from yesterday, so I'm now within the timeframe of my fresh IVF cycle.   So far I've done a pretty good job of not really thinking past the current stage of meds/cycling, but the nervousness is definitely creeping in.   The embryo we are hoping to transfer is already hatching, just like C was.  If this cycle fails, it seems like only downhill from here.   Right now I'm trying to just continue on with daily life as though nothing is going to be any different.  I been focusing on working out and trying to lose weight and that has been a good distraction.   I don't want to end up in a downward cycle like I did the first time through, gaining too much weight because I was forever telling myself that I could be pregnant soon so it wouldn't matter.   I'm feeling pretty good right now physically, about 12lbs under BFP weight (23lbs under weight on BCPs for IVF #1) and a lot more of that is muscle this time through.   I will cut back closer to transfer and I won't be doing tons of burpees or anything after the transfer, but I'd like to stay somewhat active in the 2ww.   So ready to be done with this Lupron though....fatigue and headaches all the time.  I'm also convinced that it is making me bloat, because no matter what I do, I haven't been able to drop and keep off a single pound.

the gangs all here

Including AF, that nasty bitch.  I swear the cramps have been so bad that it feels like someone is trying to pull my legs out of the hip sockets.

Anyway,the rest of my meds arrived on Tuesday.   Mentally it feels like FET is a lot less medication, but really, it is only 2 less shots.

Clockwise from left: alchol swabs, Lupron and needles, 3 boxes of Progesterone in Oil,

 Sharps container, Estrace, Doxycycline, Medrol, Needles for PIO, and BCPs (done now).

This morning I had my first lining check and everything looked good.  Of course the lab tech couldn't find a damn vein so I got stuck in both arms.  So, so thankful I don't have more monitoring for 2 weeks.   Tomorrow I start Estrace....half a pill twice daily, and I drop my Lupron to 10ml a day.   After about 5 days I bump up the estrace to 2 pills a day, and 10 days from now I take 3 pills a day.   



We meet again, old friend.

Ah....injections.  Once again I've come to that point in my life where I never thought I'd be saying, if we are lucky I'll be doing some type of shot for the next 3-4 months!   Yeah....

So I did my first Lupron shot tonight and the shot part was easy.  Shortly after it kind of felt like that ab muscle had been kicked, and by the time I'd gotten halfway through bedtime with C, it was burning and itching like a bee sting.  Awesome.   A half hour later it was no better, and even now (an hour later) the injection site is much warmer than the other side of my stomach.  Dr. google says it is normal and will go away after a few days....I'm a little leery because last week a damn deer fly bit me and the localized reaction on my hand was so bad I had to take off my wedding rings and my knuckles disappeared for 3 days.  At least the itching seems to be gone.   Now to await the other side effects.